tooooooo much sugar

never offer me free doughnuts

~thanks

I am so fricking happy right now

Do you not love it? Do you not want one? Oh how I love it. I loveth it so. My precious. (you saw that last one coming right?)

I can't seem to find the right info for it because it is technically this link here but mine has 1G, not some wimpy 512mb. Which means right now I have a bloody tonne of songs on this baby and am only at halfway.

It looks like a pink vibrator doesn't it? Heh... but yeah, so wrong.

So I have also gotten to do the meme I've always wanted to do~ which of course means I can't find the original one I wanted, I found these ones from other blogs after doing a search but none of them were the ones I wanted so I took a few questions from a few and made up some of my own.

Put your mp3 player on shuffle and whatever song comes up is the answer to the question (I'm not going to do the classical ones cause Allegreto #7 doesn't really seem all that fun of an answer). No cheating! Then the final ten songs I will only put the first line and see if you can guess them- I don't know if enough people read my blog to make the last meme work but it's my blog and my MP3 player so I'll do it anyways.

Describe yourself:
All I Really Want~ Alanis Morisette
How do you feel about yourself?
Dying~ Hole (um... ack)
Describe an ex-girlfriend/boyfriend:
Rock & Roll~ Led Zeppelin (sadly but seriously, all my exs are so vanilla)
Describe your ideal girlfriend/boyfriend:
Striptease~ Hawksley Workman
Describe where you want to live:
Stupid~ Sarah McLaughlan (do you think it's stupid because I can't remember how to spell her last name?)
Describe what you want to be:
Use Once and Destroy~ Hole (I need to stop getting this band!)
Describe how you live:
Stairway to Heaven~ Led Zeppelin
Describe how you love:
Try Just a Little Bit Harder~ Janis Joplin
How do you feel about school:
Awful- Hole (I swear on the Spawnkitty this was not a fixed answer)
Share a few words of wisdom:
Going Under ~Evanescence
Do people secretly lust after me?
(Okay, the first one was Amie by Damien Rice but that is stupid so I'm pressing it again)
Freakshow~ Ani Difranco (not much more sense, but better) (Oh, and the song Amie by Damien Rice isn't stupid, it's great, but not as an answer)
How can I make myself happy?
Mariner's Song- Cowboy Junkies (marry a fisherman?)
What should I do with my life?
softer, softest- Hole
Will I ever meet my soul mate?
Cornflake Girl- Tori Amos (yes and no questions don't really work well on this meme do they?)
What is some good advice for me?
Bye Bye Baby- Janis Joplin
How will I be remembered?
Gone- Kelly Clarkson (it's kinda like the player is mocking me)
What is my signature dancing song?
Soap Star Joe- Liz Phair
What do I think is my current theme song?
Joyful Girl- Ani Difranco (wonderful answers like this make the meme all worth it)
What song will play at my funeral?
Icicle- Tori Amos
What type of men/women do you like?
Cherry Popsicle- Jann Arden (Okay, I was so tempted to skip that song because... well, I'm sure you know why)
What is my day going to be like?
(another name song, Isaac by Madonna, going to skip it too)
Forgiven- Alanis Morisette (I'll let you know tomorrow how this plays out)
How are you feeling today?
Roll on Home- Susanna
What is the story of your life?
Never Said- Liz Phair
What was high school like?
Credit in the Straight World-Hole
What do your pets think about you?
Past the Mission- Tori amos
What is in store for this weekend?
You Me and the Weather~ Hawskley Workman
Since you are blogging and not writing your paper, what do you think your comment on it will be when it gets handed back?
Piece of my Heart- Janis Joplin (is that good or bad?)

Some of these are kinda really easy but most of them are kinda hard so I don't know.

1. I don't believe in the smile/ that you leave when you awalk/ and say goodbye
2. you said things I wouldn't say straight to my face boy
3. it's not/ what you thought/ when you first began it
4. oh baby it's crying time/ oh baby I've got to fly
5. take your coat and shoes off/ come and sit beside me
6. How can you see into my eyes like open doors
7. live baby live now that the day is over
8. I don't want to work away/ doing just what they all say
9. I recommend getting your heart trampled to another/ yeah/ oh yeah
10. Got your hand up all in my shirt/and you know that it hurts
    

My shuffle option is leaving out a long of albums, but it really seems to like Hole. I loveth it so.

sushi and journal articles

Wow, I just wrote an entire paragraph then deleted it because it was soooo boring. I'll condense it so it's more reader friendly.

Have a paper due in three days about journal articles about self esteem that were so tedious to read I kinda wanted to kill myself. My experiences with each are as follows

1. fell asleep while reading it
2. took me ages to read because I kept on listening to the conversations of people around me (which I'll mention more later)
3. skimmed in 45 minutes before class but turned out I was one of the only people who even printed it off so we didn't discuss it anyways.
   

In other news, I'm going home over thanksgiving! Wheeeeeeeeee!

Poor baby Spike the Spawnkitty is sick. He was up all night barfing up his new kitty food. When he is sick he likes really confined dark spaces, well, more than he already does, so he was in the hall closet snuggled between blankets all morning but I moved him into his kitty tent and put blankets over it so it was more enclosed. I prefer for him to be where I can see him incase he starts to get sick again. It's really hard to try to make cats drink water. At first I got his paw all wet thinking he would lick it but he just fell back asleep (or feigned sleep so I would leave him alone) and then I was putting it on his nose but I realized quickly if I was to do that again he was going to bite me, no matter how tired he was.

September is evil but that's not your fault so I won't talk about it much. Just know- evil.

Oh, going out for sushi tonight.

Can you people help me? I really need to start exercising again because since school started and I quit work I have not been exercising. I use to walk all the time for hours at a time but now my biggest walk is the ten minute jaunt to the bus stop and the stairs up to Jenn's office. I really want to start swimming but I never go! So frustrating. Did I tell you that I lost seven pounds this summer? That was nice.

And I need to buy a MP3 player. Need you say? Do you really need an MP3 player Leone? Yes. Yes I do. Without one, all I do is become distracto girl, listening to people's conversation, looking at what people are wearing, trying to figure out what they are reading, looking out windows, counting lights, trying to figure out the stitch pattern in my new sweater, etc. With an MP3 player (okay, I know that M isn't a vowel but when I write a MP3 player it just seems wrong, don't ask me why) I can just disconnect myself from everything around me and focus on the task at hand. Yes sometimes I skip a song or I will listen to a song but the amount of work I get done with an MP3 player is stellar. Must have one.

Away I go.

I am so smart! S-M-R-T!

So, you ever do that thing where you kinda spontaneously say something in class and the moment the words leave your mouth you realize how stupid that was but really, all you can do is sit there while everone else in the class systematically tears down the stupid thing you said because it's stupid and you just kinda decide to shut up for the rest of the class?

No, I've never done that either.

School..... right.

So yeah, I'm completely weird and boring right now. The first week of school- I was so prepared, I was ready, I was psyched- nothing happened. No textbook for one class because it has been backordered till the end of the month so no readings and no readings for my other class because I had already read the intro to the book. I only had two subjects last week so I went to four classes and I was kinda bored in each, but I did try. I took notes which quickly turned into scribbling sketches which then would turn back into notes when I would try to get back on track and once again into the scribbles.

And then there is the lonely factor. My friend Kim and my friend Alyson graduated last year, so I have a lot of acquaintences and people to chat with, but not like I can with those two. It really sucks. I pouted a lot.

Yesterday was a lot better. My methods class is ridiciously hard core and there's about three papers altogether, hordes of reading that we have to get done in about 6 weeks because after that is when we accumulate and then analyze data for our final paper so I'm happy with this class because my other two are so low key that I will be able to focus with this class and while I'm sure it will stress me out I think I will enjoy it a lot more than if I was taking lots of classes.

Yesterday was also my last day at work. I go back in December for Xmas rush which I'm fine with.

Just, I feel really disjointed and out of place now, and it's kinda disheartening. Blarg. Oh well, soon I will be up to my ears in journal articles about self esteem so I will feel more homicidal then disheartened. I'm just pouty.

In other news, I finished the cable toque. Sewing than cutting knitting is very stressful but is also kinda fun.

Whose up for some drinks after class? Me! Me!

My body and I aren't talking right now

Two days before school starts and I get a coldsore! Argh! (The massive breakout of zits along my chin are my fault... chocolate bar? What chocolate bar?)

I'm going to make this a short blog as I realized yesterday that my last blog entry was freakishly long and it could be boring-I don't know, it's too long to read again.

Knitting with beads takes longer than ordinary knitting. This can prove really really really annoying; however, continuing to knit a complicated cable toque when you know it's too large may cause you to shun it onto the top of your bookshelf along with the chess set (star wars chess set, thank you very much) and scowl at it from afar.

Last night I had an upsetting dream that was freakishly real and now I don't want to go back to bed.

Tomorrow is my last day of freedom. I'll let you know how that goes.

Eileen, how did your exams go?