Wednesday, August 13, 2008

My Angst is your Angst

I'm so emotional when I'm premenstral. I cried last night worried that my friend who likes to mountain bike and cross raging rivers will hurt herself even though she's safely trapped in the city teaching right now; I became insanely emotional when I heard about the aid workers in Afghanistan (which is a very valid reason to be upset) and could not stop sobbing in front of my computer; I got rather upset with my messy kitchen and crashed pots into my sink like a spoiled child(possibly scaring my neighbour in the apartment next to me (our kitchen windows face each other)) and then kicked some cupboards and hurt my foot; and I keep on getting worked up over my knitting because I am paralyzed in wretched selfish doubt that I won't finish my shawl in time before the end of the olympics.

So I decided to start reading Angela's Ashes.

Yeah, so if my neighbours weren't worried about me before the heaving sobs coming from my apartment would make them so. I honestly don't know how people survive such grief. Once I got over that I went into the bathroom to wash my face and cried some more. So I decided to eat a peanut butter and jam sandwich. Despite the sadness, I am very engrossed in the book and will continue to read it only tonight I need to go work on my knitting some more if I am to finish before the end of the Olympics. It's not like anything I've read before.

And in a happy note? Drunken Monkey is putting out a clothing line! Woooo!


Anonymous said...

It's okay girl. I think the full moon is coming this week too. Your emotions didn't stand a chance. :) Besides, crying, gets toxins out of the body. Think of it as a cleanse. :)

yarnpiggy said...

Ok, I'll admit it, my first thought when I read "So I decided to start reading Angela's Ashes" was that you needed a good smack upside the head. Seriously, not the best timing on that one.

(Bad piggy!)

But beentsy's right -- crying is cleansing. And a good pbj doesn't hurt, either. :-) Hope you feel better soon.

julia said...

ohhhh pumpkin, i send you hugs

and i cried when i heard about the people killed too. targeted murders of aid workers is a pretty disgusting act (i think that's true despite my bias).

so i send hugs, and kisses, and general snuggliness.

brooke t. higgins said...

Wow. Mega hugs straight to you. Mega ones!

I feel like I've accomplished something if I can be a bright spot in between your tears. HUGS!! Love ya!

Anonymous said...

Hmm....Angela's Ashes when you are feeling a little depressed....... Nope, absolutely no sense at all!! Angela's Ashes when you are feeling on top of the world is even a little "iffy". But you are right, it is an amazing book. And your hair looks wonderful. Love Mom