Thursday, September 24, 2009


I still, despite being lactose intolerant for three years, am amazed how food can impact my emotions and feelings. It's so bizarre that eating can alter how I feel about me.

For instance, today I have had chocolate cake (there was a birthday in my K class), cheese and broccoli bites, and then for dinner I had a vegetarian monte-cristo (cheese and egg). And now? Now I feel horrid.

I am going to be alone forever because I am unlovable. I hate everything I have knit. I am too incompetent to teach. I can't make unit plans. I am unhealthy. I have stoopid hair. I blah blah blah blah. All of these things are untrue and just all around really ignorant thoughts of me to have but never the less, here I am! Sitting on my couch~ berating myself over the stupidest of things. I also decided my toenails are ugly and I'm a bad person for not hemming my jeans. Seriously. I nearly made myself cry when I realized I hadn't unplugged my phone charger from yesterday because I was a bad environmentalist.

How it is that this is because of dairy? How can one thing make me so unreasonable and lame? I always heard people talk about the connection between food and, well, everything, but I still get blown away by how powerful that connection can be. That food can impact who you are. Freaky.

In order to get out of my funk I'm going to go to knitting and hope my friends don't make me leave for being a poo. And I brushed the Spike until he decided it was time to bite me. And I'm going to eat a banana to try to counteract some of this bad dairy mojo.

Oh the Evil Spikester.


Anonymous said...

You'll never be alone. You've got knitters! :) Loves ya girl.

Jenn said...

Aww, poor yonners.

On a side note, as I typed awww I accidentally typed asss instead. That made me laugh.

I lurve you!

mandy said...

I've never seen your toenails but I'm sure they aren't as ugly as my SIL's - you're going to have to trust me on this one. Oh, and I have at least 2 pairs of pants that are brand new, and beautiful and sitting on my sewing desk because they need to be hemmed. We can be bad people together for that. You make me laugh lots - I quite like you. Hope you are having a better day!

Anonymous said...

Well I am here to tell you that seeing you ( and Julia, and Jason) this weekend brightened up my life. My week at work was so tough and I was feeling so down. Between having Jen and Jim here, and you and Julia (and Jason) at the Coast, and dad, of course, even if at times just for comic relief (refer to card game of golf) I am so lucky to have my family. They are good, good people, who care about me, their dad (dad-in-law) and each other. You have to be very special people to be so loved by your family and friends. So it is okay to feel down sometimes, bad dairy, as long as you keep the big picture the clearest. Love you. Mom