Well... guess I'm done

Wow, that was possibly the longest four months of my life. When I think back to January and going to my first week of classes it seems like it was a lifetime ago. So in January...

• Going have my graduation requirements done by August
• Applying for the UNBC september education program
• volunteering at a school twice a week
• Presenting in PsycOut.
• Had a good friend 'X'
• Had a major crush on 'R'
• Freakishly unhappy and prone to nervous breakdowns

And now....

• Taking another year to grad
• Taking the summer off
• Going to apply for this university but hopefully get into UBC or UVIC education program
• Thankfully, due to dropping my methods course, I did not have to present at PsycOut
• Said friend X now acts like a total spaz when they even see me in the hallway
• Major crush was a major letdown and is now a good acquaintance
• still prone to nervous breakdowns but much, much happier

So yeah, my last exam was a good way to end the saga of the winter 06 semester since it was probably the HARDEST exam I have ever taken. I mean, eeeeeeevil. Evil. However, I'm pretty sure I passed, and like I stated before, I just needed to pass to get a C- so let's keep our fingers crossed people!

Now that school is over (for a bit at least), I'm going to have to define my angst with something else. I really don't go for that whole tortured artist crap, so are there angsty knitters? Who rage against the machine by knitting scarves for their cousins? In fun fur? That sparkles? Wheeeee! Maybe I'll just lay the teenage angst to the side and see what just happens. Maybe I'll just be angsty again and then we will know that it's innate. Maybe I actually have a cheerful and charming personality under all this school stress. Meh. I need people to give me books to read (well, the titles of books to read, or if they really want, they can give me books too) over the summer! I'll find my started list at home and blog that soon. I'll probably blog more. Heh. Blogging is cool.

Tata! I am off to lead my school-less life for awhile! Wish me luck!

Wikimeme (from bettie)

Enter your birthdate into wikipedia and list three events, two births, and one death.

December 25th:

Events

• 274 - Roman Emperor Aurelian has a temple dedicated to Sol Invictus on the supposed day of the solstice and day of rebirth of the Sun.
• 1939 - Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer is introduced by Montgomery Ward stores.
• 1987- In one of the highest-rated episodes in Coronation Street history, Hilda Ogden leaves her home of 23 years to be a char to her doctor in the country.
  

Births

• 1667 - Ehrengard Melusine von der Schulenburg, Duchess of Kendal and Munster, English royal mistress (d. 1743)
• 1674 - Thomas Halyburton, Scottish theologian (d. 1712)

Death

• 1977 - Charlie Chaplin, English actor (b. 1889)

And even though I wasn't tagged, I'm going to tag Eileen, Podgy, and Helen!

~Pips & Giggles~

Wheeee! I made a math error today that has in turn made me happy! I thought I need 61% on my final in order to get a C- in Biology but it turns out I only need a 49% to get a C-, so who knows, maybe I get higher than a C-! Like a C or something! Wow, how far have my standards fallen! I'm so excited about this that I can't stop thinking and writing in exclamation marks!

Moral of the story: NEVER take biology. Ever. As well, Adrienne and Jodi are completely mad. That is the only way anyone could ever take introduction biology and continue on. Don't get me wrong, I still respect you two and everything. You are just both stark raving mad.

Moral of the day: do not drink three cups of strong coffee (espresso strong) in under two hours cause your tummy will hurt for the rest of the day.

Moral of the hour: maybe I shouldn't be making smart-ass comments about my intelligent friends, cause I may need to borrow money off them one day or something.

Also, don't eat the hummus!

In other news....

I cannot make myself study any more, and I went to do dishes but the water is too hot so I figured that was a sign to go blog. In all fairness to school, detailing my lack of caring and studying for my courses, I'm doing pretty well. I'm getting fine grades in my two psych courses and so far, I passed my biology lab section (just found out this morning, sooooo happy) and I need 41% on the final to pass the lecture section so I'm aiming high for a 50%! Seriously though, trying to study 29 tediously long chapters is just so... tedious. Hm. My vocab is dissolving at an alarming rate. I should get these guys to write my blog entries from now on.
On the knitting front, I have finished two projects without starting any new ones (I was starting to accumulate a lot of projects) and I could finish another one soon if it wasn't for a major screw up that has got me all gloomy about it. I only have to frog it about 12 rows and at 22 stitches wide that's really no big deal but unfortunately the yarn is a mesh of yarns including mohair which is going to make that task freaking hard. I'm going to what till Mom can help me in case I panic halfway through and can't go on. I just finished my wristband that I knit for my friend Leboe, it is suppose to be 8 and a half inches long (his wrist is 7 and a half inches wide but I added an inch for the clips) so anyhoo, I'm knitting this thing on tiniest needles (1.75 mm) and I'm knitting it widthwise (?), so basically cast on 100 some odd stitches and knit I dunno, I think 30 rows, then cast off.... it's 10 and a half inches long. I mean seriously! What is up with this? I can never do my own stuff because I don't trust my knitting! I did a swatch! I measured it, I computed the stitches into the measurements and it's not suppose to do that! grrrrr. I think, however, it may not just be evil yarn, I only cast on 30 stitches for my swatch which came up to about two inches or something, so maybe I should always knit a 4 inch swatch when doing my own patterns. Hm. Gr. So basically, there is two inches of knitting that had need not be done and I hope the overlap isn't going to make the wristband look stupid. The skull and crossbones turned out great though. Maybe I can get a picture of Leboe wearing it sometime and blog it. I'm trying to make it curl less right now and the pins I'm using are all sorts of colours and they look skittles.
Well, I'm sure the dish water has cooled enough by now (the trick is not to wait till it gets cold and unuseable). I have so many chores to do. It looks like a clothing bomb went off in my room, and don't even get me started on the papers I need to go through for recycling. I'm going to start my double knitting scarf tonight! (it's funny because you would think I would have all these social things to do since it is the end of school, but I think because of all the study groups and so on, I am so sick of people right now). I also want to dye my hair tonight.

so the best thing ever!

this was the first result of me putting my name in here and those who know me know why this is so excellent! Mwahaha!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Leone!

1. Only twelve people have ever set foot on leone!
2. Women shoplift four times more frequently than leone.
3. Influenza got its name because people believed the disease was caused by the evil "influence" of leone.
4. Leone is 984 feet tall.
5. In the 1600s, tobacco was frequently prescribed to treat headaches, bad breath and leone!
6. The opposite sides of leone always add up to seven.
7. Finding leone on Christmas morning is believed to bring good luck!
8. Long ago, the people of Nicaragua believed that if they threw leone into a volcano it would stop erupting.
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I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Motivate me!

I have had a very productive morning, just not necessarily schoolwork wise, though I did go to one of my classes! I also got groceries, went for a walk, talked to some friends, got smallpox, and figured out another xmas present! So now I have to do some schoolwork, I have a final on Friday and another one on the following Thursday (the 13th, how appropriate). So I've decided to make a list of things I would rather be doing than studying (now the question is do I put blogging on the list, because I already am, so would that just be redundant?) I like making lists. And after making this list, I'm going to do three hours of study, probably interrupted by eating at one point, but yeah. Then I get to do something fun for a bit, than hopefully another two hours, that would be key. My expectations of schoolwork are so low, and I find that quite funny.

• Finish baby blanket
• Email my katima-friends
• Make up list of home improvements
• Finish Monkey Beach (book)
• Go for another walk
• See if a friend wants to go for sushi
  
• Put away laundry in room
• Watch more of simpsons season seven on DVD (wheee for Jill!)
• Work some more on my painting (and yes Helen, it is watercolour with black pen detailing and it's on watercolour paper and I used the booger stuff like Jenn said)
  
• Do the dishes (seriously, I would rather do housework!)
• Tae bo
• Dye my hair

And now away I go to study some psychology of learning (HA!) and some biology too. Tata!

Trial (unwearable) socks done!

(side note: since arriving at school at 3:30 pm I have had a smirnoff ice vodka, really old reheated pizza slice, doritos, 3 two bite brownies, and half a can of coke... so I feel really, really, really ill right now.... really)

In other news, before the barf feast I finished the trial sock! I decided not to do the entire length of the foot because it was just a waste of yarn and I went right into the toe wedge and finished it in two hours (while watching TNG... I love the Spike channel). So the sock looks really messed up, moreso since the ankle part is longer than the foot part and I did the heel and the toe in white yarn (the rest in the sock was in black) and the toe wedge looks like the beak of a penguin. I'm going to look up other ways of doing a toe wedge because it wasn't very toe-like, though I have nothing against penguins. I've very excited to start a new pair of socks for Jason and seeing how those turn out. I was going to try to fix the messed up float on the socks so they will be wearable but the skulls were so messed up I wouldn't want anyone wearing them anyways. As well as the second attempt at skull socks for Jason, I also got sock yarn for Jenn and Jim and I and am going to try to knit us some red and white hiking socks (white cuff, red socks).

Oh my tummy..... unhappy tummy. (it's the social aspect that does it! I would not have eaten that if all my friends weren't doing the same! Oh the peer pressure and my weak will! And the coke was free! Free! So I got it, drank half, and realized... I don't really like coke. Then I left it on a table somewhere at school.)

Did I mention that my wonderful amazing mother got me two sets of double pointed knitting needles, one set is wood (!) and size 2 mm, and the other pair is metal and 1.75mm! Wheeee! I wasn't able to find them in PG and I knit loosely so I need pretty small knitting needles to follow some of the sock patterns. Thanks mom!

still a work in progress... some errors

There are some errors on this still and there is alot of work to be done but I figured I would blog it because I've spent lots of time on it (usually sleep deprived and mopey so that might explain the errors) and so here it is for your viewing pleasure.

I'm sad

... but this helped cheer me up.

Should have stayed in bed

**warning: explicit self pity from an over-priviledged individual**


So this morning when my alarm went off I awoke thinking 'today is not going to be a good day'. I mean, I could feel it in my bones and internal organs.

TODAY IS NOT A GOOD DAY

And this is no common self fufilling prophecy, I'm not just seeing the bad in neutral things. Letsee here, getting 51% on my biology exam... not good, check.
Forgetting to email myself my paper so I can work on it while at school... not good, check.
The only computer lab that is open is the one that is sweltering hot to a gross point of smelliness... not good, check.
Spilling my coffee on my new bag... not good, check.
Having to sit through another horrid lecture in my psychology class with disorganization and not funny silliness rampant... not good, check.
Painfully spending an hour trimming down my paper for biology to 7 pages despite not having all the info I know I need but there is NO room... not good, check.

Found out there was an apple in my locker so now there are fruit flies in my locker... not good, check.

Wasn't able to register into two of the classes I wanted to take because of stupid prerequisites... not good, check.

Getting my presenation mark back in an hour... not good, soon to be checked.
Dissecting a frog which would normally be fine but having to do it in a group of four... not good, soon to be checked.

See! See! Maybe school is here to make people appreciate their careers more. I guess I'll end this on a good note.

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I was able to get into all the courses I wanted for the first semester... that was fine. They are all stupid courses I don't want to take but have to. Um.... oh okay, I've got it! I printed off one of Jenn's wedding photos and one of her friends saw me and came and we gabbed about it and that was good. Check. There, that's good.

So much blogging....

I am blogging so much lately! Anyhoo, update on my goal is completed! I finished the first goal of four pages by 1030 am! Then I went and got some groceries and coffee and did a one and a half more pages, plus my two appendixes (sp?) so I am quite pleased with myself. My class was fine, my friend Kim was presenting and we agreed that I would cough everytime she started talking too quickly but after the first couple minutes I realized that plan wouldn't work because she would start to talk really quickly and I would cough, then she would slow down for about ten seconds then speed up again and I figured I would just become really distracting so I only coughed twice (and then I coughed sporadically throughout the entire class so the prof wouldn't think I was faking). But otherwise she did an amazing job, she is one of those people who is freakishly smart. I still really like her.

In other news, I really like some of the American Idols. I don't know cause I've never followed a previous season but I think there are some really neat people on, like Mandesa, Paris, Chris, Taylor, and Katherine. Mandesa is an amazing singer and performer, same with Paris, they are both effortless singing talent. Chris is cool, and he's a stepdad and just cool. Taylor and Katherine aren't as good as singers, but they are great performers and I really like watching them. Huh. Anyhoo, I have to say I think Simon is a jerk and mean, but he is honest, and I get embarrased by Paula and her antics and her sad desperation and I think he gets embarrased by her too.

Well, I'm going to go finish my hot milk and get ready for bed. I should attend my morning class tomorrow. Meh.

Gameplan

First three written pages (4 altogether): get to go for walk and get coffee from downtown

Every entire written page after that: either
a) get to knit two rows on Deformed Skull Socks
b) two rows on Baby Julian baby blanket or
c) two rows of new project I've started that is a Xmas present so I can't talk about it.

End goal: have 6-8 pages done by the time I have to go to school (3:45).

Annnnnnnnnnnddddd..... GO!

Skulls are cool (drawn.... not actualized)

So I am trying to write my paper for senior seminar right now. Can't you tell? I actually got so frustrated with my lack of writing and amazing procrastination abilities that I switched to my biology homework and got some work done. How sad is it that I would rather write about the action potential of a cell than write a paper? All the research is done it's just putting it together. Luckily, I have made a pact with a friend to proof read each other's paper on Wednesday so that helps motivate me.

In other news, I am coming down from a wonderful week with my Mom. It was a pretty low key visit, I had a biology exam on Friday so there was lots of studying, but there was also lots of curling, knitting, shopping, and cooking (and coffee... lots and lots of coffee). Having my Mom here is better than reading break. My Mom also helps me remember why I am in school, which is to be a teacher and apply my knowledge for good (not evil, unlike the university). Oh, one second, my tea water is boiling.

Okay, I'm back.

Knitting is coming along, I'm nearly done the baby blanket for the March 1st baby Julian (baby shower isn't for another two weeks, it's not like I'm just pshawing along) and I've started the foot part of the unwearable sock, but I just the measurements of Jasons foot to put in the sock generator and get a proper pattern. I also started a xmas present for a friend who reads this blog so I can't talk about it but it's sooooo nice. I got the yarn at a new yarn store I found in PG with Mom. I completely forgot I told a friend I would knit him a wristband so I need to start that too... which is bad because I actually try not to have more than two projects going on at once and this would be four, but meh. I actually designed the letters and the skull and crossbones for the wristband during psychology of learning class. There is this girl in that class... lets call her... Hibrina, and she talks and talks all the time and basically turns stuff about the learning material into a story she can tell us about her life or she'll let us know her opinion about everything and say really informative stuff (by informative stuff, I mean, really really obvious stuff... so painfully obvious that something she said in class today caused another student to let out of snort of laughter). Right... rant, anyhoo so that's the knitting side of things.

I'm going to go now and study biology some more. Maybe I'll try to work on my paper after Project Runway (and remember people, I'm watching it on the Life channel so I do NOT know who won yet!). Though I saw Project Jay last night, I have mixed emotions on Jay. When you follow him around during a stressful period of his life of course you can see that he has a lot of issues and isn't always so funny but I still really like him and what Heidi did to him was just plain mean. I love how mean he is. That bit with Wendy Pepper at Austins show?!? I was laughing so hard I was crying. Ohmigod.

Seriously I'm gone... or else my tea might get too strong. Ugh.

Have you seen who they got to replace McGill on Passions?

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.

The Underwear Oracle

And on that note, how are you?

trial sock

So my poor skull sock for Jason may not be a 'wearable' sock. Those are so over-rated anyways. I managed to do a fine job on the cuff this time around, doing a 1x1 rib, and then I started with the skulls, doing fair isle, which is knitting with two strands of yarn, carrying one behind the other, but this sock is now a learning experience. What have I learned? Well, that you need to allow enough of a float of the yarn you are carrying in order to allow the sock to stretch because the first 15 rows of my sock doesn't stretch at all and don't put a skull between dpn because that just makes it look soooo messy. So I'm about to start the heel of the sock now and even though this sock may not be you know, a true sock, I'm going to finish it because I've put a lot of work into it and I may as well finish the sock and see what else I can learn before I start another one. For the next one I'm going to do the skulls intarsia (sp?) because there are a lot of spots on the sock where you can really see the white yarn behind the black stitches. Anyhoo, going to go meet Jenn for lunch as I am starving!

My Favorite Things

• Bears and Caaaandy
• Knitting without guilt
• Cooking fun meals
• Reading novels cuddled up in my white chair with my duvet and a hot chocolate and a kitty on my lap
• When people come to visit
• My purse that even bus drivers and security guards compliment me on
• Tattoos
• Biology lectures (just not the readings or the exams or the studying, but the lectures I like)
• Using my teeny tiny ink pen to make detailed art pictures
• When I wake up fifteen minutes before I have to and get to lie in bed and be in limbo
• Going to walks in the park with a friend
• When annoying people are told to shut up in class (either by me or other people)
• Meeting friends at a cafe and never having a lull in the conversation
• Being introduced to people you've wondered about for a long time and finding out they have wondered about you for a long time
• Getting a good mark on something I've worked really hard on
• Sending long emails to friends
• The colour purple and blue shaded into one another
• When Spike or Chuck starts to purr for no reason I can tell
• When I wake up to coffee
• A pen with really nice ink
• When people leave comments on my blog
• Nice smelling bubble bath
• Unbroken spines in my favorite books
• When someone references one of my favorite pop culture icons (Buffy, Harry Potter, Lenore, Spiderman)
• Jenn's wedding dress
• Mailing and getting personal letters
• Skulls
• My ring that reminds me of Grandma Hazel
• Framed personal photographs
• My Calvin and Hobbes books
• New knitting patterns

Thief

So I found out that I was a theif of bandwidth so I'm trying to change that but I have NO idea how to put my stuff on my template without using the web so I put them on my blog and then put them on so at least I'm stealing my own bandwidth. That's why those photos are down there. I also changed Xmas list to my drawings (you know, detailing it's March and all) and added my socks to my knitting chronicles. I am suppose to be doing homework but we've had this conversation no?

tv can be very stupid

Chuck is dreaming

Best Line EVER

'I'm afraid Bjork couldn't be here tonight, she was trying on her outfit and Dick Cheney shot her'

~Jon Stewart 78th Oscar Awards

(I should note, I heart Bjork and all, the line is just really funny)

READ INSTRUCTIONS!!!

so... do you remember that whole fiasco like three weeks ago or so about a paper that I stressed out about then realized it wasn't due till the next week? So here we are, round two people! I'm freaking out about this paper, I've written the entire thing, discussion, conclusion, abstract, tra la la, it's 9 pages and it is only allowed to be 7 (they dock 5 marks pr extra page which is a huge chunk of the mark) and so I'm working, I'm working, and I sent an email to my TA just to clarify something she said in an email that made no sense to me. That she only wanted 2.5 pages. I'm like, what? Say quoi?

Do any of you see what's coming up here?

Only the discussion,conclusion, and references are due today. Not any other part of the paper, no abstract, no results, nada. So once again, I have done wayyyy more work then needed in a stressfull morning full of coffee. Right. I'm going to go read a online comics or something now. Sigh. And oh yeah, if you are ever doing an experiment, do not come up with two hypothesis. Because that really just screws you over for the page limit.

Aspiration: Work in Progress I

knitting blues

So after finished my rainbow scarf for CBC (I still have to block it this weekend-hopefully it's not too late), I finally started my skull socks for Jason (brother in law). So I picked up some black sock yarn and same weight white yarn from my favorite knitting store, Darlene's Yarns (oh, and I just found out that there are TWO knitting stores in PG, but thankfully the other one is not walking nor bus distance so it will have to be more rare visits which will help not kill my finances) Anyhoo, so I've got this yarn and I find some online knitting patterns that I want, very simple, I want to knit stockinette stitch because I came up with my own skull pattern (sooooo bloody cute) that I can do with fair isle. But when I look at the yarn for all the sock patterns, they are all worsted weight, and my sock yarn is super fine. Grumble grumble. So I find this algebraic sock pattern which looks fun. I knit up a swatch on size 2.75 needles and figure out I have 10 stitches per inch. So I fill in the x and start knitting on my dpn and mmm... it's coming out super lacey, which isn't too surprising because I have a really hard time knitting on dpn (double pointed needles, sorry, that's when you have a whole bunch of little needles that have a point on each end and you can knit in a circle, you can use four or five at a time) as well, I was doing a 3x3 ribbing (that's when you knit three, than purl three, which pulls the yarn together so it's tighter for the top of the sock to hold it on better) and because the stitches are so small and because the yarn is black I kept on messing up my stitches, so after three rows I decided to frog it (rip it all out). So this was all at school and when I got home that night after a boring seminar (which was a shame because I normally really enjoy that prof's seminars), I came home, got my smallest needles which were 2.25 (mm) and knit another swatch with 30 stitches but this time I carried the yarn along that back in order to knit techniqually in the round even though I wasn't, cause if you knit purl it's different than just knitting every row to get the stockinette stitch (which you do when you knit in the round), sorry this is completed and boring for none knitters, I understand if you have stopped reading by now, but there is a point here, my latest dilemma? My stitch count for my gauge on smaller needles is 8 stitchs per inch! What the heck? Does knitting a swatch in the round make that much of a difference? I was sooo confused last night. I mean, logic would dictate that if you knit with smaller needles using the same yarn, you should have a greater number of stitches per inch. For instance, if I used this yarn on 6mm needles, it would probably be like five stitches per inch, unless I have gone mad. Sometimes I think I have. I've been knitting seriously (kinda) for over a year now and I still do not understand how yarn works and stuff (like at Christmas, Jenn got me this beautiful hand dyed wool from Darlene for me and I tried to do all this elaborate lace work with it and now I know... you can't do that with that yarn, it just looks messy). So I am confused! So I'm going to go ahead with my new measurement and hopefully I won't finish the first sock and realize it's all messed. Sigh.

Evening update: turns out that the needles I may have used were larger than I thought because of a sorting issue. Anyhoo, Spike is literally trying to climb walls right now and window edging so I need to go. I've started the socks, here's hoping.

hard day, watching TV and blogging

So I've spend the last two days perfecting my presentation for senior seminar. I finished it on Friday, then as you know I spent the weekend working, taking care of a sick kitty(oh wait, I forgot about this... see Spike's blog), and going out, so yesterday I started perfecting it, putting in all the graphs and clip art and working out glitches, then I came home early yesterday because I needed a nap, and when I went to work on it again, I found out that remote desktop was done so I couldn't access it! Argh, so I still had my print outs from school so I made tonnes of changes to fix the flow and stuff and made all these notes and stuff. So this morning, I got up, got all pretty, got to school and worked on it for basically four hours (quick bit where I remembered I hadn't written my colliquium paper yet and spent about fifteen minutes writing that up... heh). So then I nearly panicked when for some reason the computer in the classroom wasn't letting me log onto my H drive, but I just had to switch the outlet I was using, but that made me a little meh at first. Overall, I got some really good feedback and I had no questions I couldn't asnwer and it just made the 30 min mark so I'm pretty happy about it. I had these big plans to come home and study for my bio lab quiz tomorrow, but I'm so beat. I'm going to watch American Idol and let you know all about my opinions, because I don't actually vote. Or care really, but it's fun.

Mandisa- mostly like her, she really is a valley girl. I like how her comments to Simon were uber religious and none of the clips about it are showing that part, on American Idol or any of the gossip shows. I think she sang really well, started off bad, but ended so freakin well. Does she have only one name?

Kelly P.-did she hit any of her notes? Really? I like her, I feel bad that's she so nervous and that she did the ugly cry on tv about her dad. I do agree that she's sweet and it's so funny that she admitted that she has no love life and then giggled. She will probably get a lot of perverted men votes.

Becky- I've never understood her. How did she even get to hollywood? She's good really low, but she can't hit her notes or carry a tune. Oh yeah, and this whole her looks thing? She's pretty but she's no Angie. She had better be gone on Thursday. I mean, she sucked and the judges told her that she did better than they thought she would.

Ayla-I want to not like her (could she be any more perfect?), but I'll settle for a non-chalant meh. I mean, she redeemed herself in hollywood week by freaking out in the elevator, and her favorite movie is Mulan. I heart Mulan. Oh, unfortunate pants. She's a good singer. (Is that the right spelling? chalant? I dunno)

Paris- I HEART PARIS!!! I love her! She's so talented that I am sure she will release a CD whether or not she wins (I think she is too talented for the voters to get) and I am so going to buy her CD because I love her! She's so cute and sexy at the same time! Wheeeeeee! Paris Paris Paris!

Stevie- she's an odd cookie. She reminds me of me when I was still young(er) and melodramatic (er). Is it just me or does she kinda suck tonight? I thought she was a better singer than this. hm. Is she sick? She started off really good. Hm, I don't know if she'll make it to the next week though. Ew- did she just flirt with Ryan Seacrest? Oh, ick!

Brenna-I also like Brenna. Oh, oh no, is she playing the poor kid card? She doesn't have a softer side, she always looks like she is hatching some evil plan. She's not singing that well either right now. I don't really remember her so I don't really have a basis of comparison. Meh, I don't think she's that great really. And now she is just embarrasing.

Heather-crazy eyes... Okay, so I was on the phone with Mom for her performance but it seems like the judges aren't impressed. I don't think I missed anything. Besides, I would turn off Paris if Mom called. Oh, the flashback...right, she was not impressing.

Melissa-well, I like her love of sisterhood, that's nice. What is she singing? Do I know this song? Mh. She's fine. Her earrings are really distracting, really so. But her singing is quite good. I really want a glass of warm milk right now but I won't have enough for coffee tomorrow.

Lisa- I love Lisa's voice. I also like that on some angles you can see the girls on the balcony behind the singer and you can see Paris totally rocking out. And unless Lisa choses more popular songs instead of good songs, she won't make it either. Too talented and possible too good of a taste in music. Can someone make Paula just stop? Just stop Paula!

Kinnik-on the phone with Jenn. I don't understand the placing of the diamond on her dress but it seems like the judges liked her. Flashback-one really high note, good for her.

Katherine-I like her. I don't know if I like her voice. Oh good, I do! Is this a country song? I still like her. And we can see Paris rocking out again! And she is much hotter than Becky! So hot. ohmigoodnes, she just apologized to the people behind her that they had to stare at her butt! She rules! Oh, she kissed Seacretin. I still love her.

Wow, thank goodness this is over. I am soooo tired. I nearly fell asleep before Jenn called. I'm happy she called, I need to talk to her when I am less sleepy. I have much little sister angst to share and hear about her fun times is the big apple. Heh. big apple. Hi Jenn! Waves. Hi to the Bears and Jim too! Tralala.

I'm not seeing anyone next week

***warning: blogging under the influence***


So first things first, I am a social butterfly. And slightly drunk, but not drunk enough to press backspace as many times as it takes to spell the word butterfly (it took me four times the first time, and only two times the second time!). So back to the social butterfly (two times) thing, let's start with last Friday, in which it all started. So it would have been the... 10th? Methinks. Anyhoo, yeah, the tenth, I went over to my friends for dinner and we played this game on her game station and ate chinese food which gave me really messed dreams that I can't remember now. Then Saturday night I went over to my friend Kim's house and had a Angelina Jolie night while her boyfriend made us dinner(!). Than Tuesday night I had my friends Kel and Mandy over to play nitendo for four hours (heh) and then Thursday during the day Corlee Corlee came over and we had lunch and played nitendo and then on Friday morning my friend Kim came over and we chatted than went over my presentation that I am doing on Tuesday and then that same day my other friend Kim from before and her boyfriend came over and I made them dinner and we watched labyrinth and but i;m a cheerleader and tonight (being saturday) I went to my friend Lebeo's house for his birthday party and got to draw on his walls and tomorrow I am going to another friend's birthday party at the waddling duck. Social butterfly (3x) people. Especially if you know how much I am normally NOT a social butterfly (2x only!) Meh.

I came home early though because i have to work tomorrow but I made pancakes and am drinking lots of water. I looooove pancakes.

religious note

So I just went blog surfing and I think I looked at maybe 20 blogs and 6 of them were all about the religion. Two muslim and four christian. Only one qualified as freaky as hell, the rest were fine, I just found that really interesting. What else was interesting was that the two muslim blogs had just started up this week. The freaky religious one was without a doubt insane. Shudder. One of the christian blogs was a young woman who was studying to be a priest and had decided to go home, she was cute because she talked about a very heated discussion she had with Jesus in the girls bathroom at her school and it came across as very funny and endearing, not scary. Another one that was interesting was a young woman who was very religious and had bible quotes in the sidebars but upon further reading and inspection I realized she had changed all the Hes to Shes, but still had a very right wing ultra conservative vibe. Well, I should go to bed now. I've had a meh day. I know I have said this before, and I sound like Emmet on PR talking about how he's a men's fashion designer every episode, but I am so burnt out with school. Forcing myself to work on my presentation and study for my biolab is torturous and I am procastinating so freaking bad. It just ruins your time because you aren't happy when you do study and you aren't happy when you aren't. I wish I was either a) brilliant so these things came to me effortlessly and I could finish and go on and do other things without worrying or b) didn't care so much about school and could blow off my work and enjoy my procastination instead of angst more. I know those people, I go to school with a lot of them. Sigh. Going to bed now so I won't sleep in till 10 tomorrow. Kisses!

Singleton's Valentine Day

So I was inspired this morning by reading a secret postcard and figured, meh, worth a shot. My valentine day consisted of

• eating kraft dinner and tuna (mixed together)
• knitting a whole bunch
• playing sims2
• being productive by doing dishes, cleaning the bathroom, and reading 11 journal articles
• going for a walk that wasn't so long that I got cold
• eating a bowl of snowpeas ( I heart snowpeas)
  
• talking to my mom (I heart mom)
  
• playing my music exceptionally loud
  
• playing mariokart with two good friends while eating popcorn and drinking hot chocolate with vodka

So actually, it was a pretty good day! Who knew? Well, since it is officially the fifteen now, I'm going to scoop the kitty litter. That will make the kitties day.

Grrr Arg

My pirate name is:

Mad Anne Bonney

Every pirate is a little bit crazy. You, though, are more than just a little bit. You can be a little bit unpredictable, but a pirate's life is far from full of certainties, so that fits in pretty well. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.

mwahaha!

I got 73% on my biology final! Woooohoooooo! I got 90% on the essay part! Mwahaha! MWAHAHA!

Hm, maybe this means I should actually do a half decent job on my paper (the one that I didn't complete last week but have not worked on since, yeah, that one). And my lab partner has missed both lectures this week. She had better show up for the lab, I don't want to be paired with a first year.

But Cohen is still true, hand knit baby blankets are more important than biology. Way.

make me care

about school. I don't care about school. And I don't care that I don't care about school. Oh well. So, I don't know if this makes me feel better or worse. I realized why my biology 102 class is so hard. It's because it's a first year science so they are weeding out people (thanks to Adrienne for drawing my attention to that). So in one way, I feel better because I'm like, okay, I'm not a total idiot for not being able to get a good mark in a first year course, but in another way, I want to go to my prof, Dr. Dandylonglegs, and say 'I'm taking this course to get into the education program, I swear, I will never take another biology course ever! Just stop making it so hard!'. I mean, if they have calculus for non majors, shouldn't they have biology for non majors? So all us slacker psychology students can get an average mark and not kill our gpa for taking this course? In other news, I'm making crazy progress on my baby blanket for a friend. She's due any day now so I've really gotta rush. It's this colour (bermuda satin, in case the page doesn't show). Okay, I'm going to go procrastinate some more before I go to school. I mean, well, I did do my write ups and my outline and everything so I'm still doing my schoolwork more or less. I just don't feel the love you know? Lacking the love. For my schoolwork. Meh.

Eat Me

So, I hate pop culture. I hate Friends, I hate Four Kings, and I hate Kristie Allie. Now, does that mean I will turn off the TV everytime Friends comes on? No -that show can be wicked funny. Anytime my sister or I need to laugh, one of us will scowl and say 'pivet!' and snorts abound. And I've barely seen Four Kings or Fat Actress but I've seen enough.

I would like to know why, that at 164 pounds, I feel so fat. I don't most of the time, but the time I feel the most like the incredible walking blob, is when I'm at my school's caferteria. Why do we as a society peg people into these simple categories? If she/he is fat, they eat like a pig. If she/he is eating healthy, then a) it's a rarity, b) they'll soon be thin. If she/he eats something unhealthy, well, they brought that weight on themselves. If people are big, then they have atrocious eating habits and brought it on themselves. Right.

TV has helped us along. Look at Monica for example: Whenever she is in her fat suit, you bet she's ordering a pizza, or eating a sandwich with mayonaise. Look at the promo for the Four Kings: once beloved Seth Green is bemoaning his fate to his friend. 'Your girlfriend is so much better than mine', and to prove his point, he holds up two pairs of panties. 'Your girlfriends' to the small, dainty little pair, and 'my girlfriend' holding up a pair of large grannies. Oh my goodness. Seth Green I spite thee! How dare you agree to say that? I mean, that is nearly as bad as it gets. Not only is the weight of girls now how you determine their self worth, let's not forget that if you aren't thin, you apparently can't be sexy either! Wear those grannies and wallow in your own filth! Bah!

And Kristie, oh Kristie. I mean, from what I have read it sounds like her show Fat Actress was one long running fat joke anyways, but what I can critize is what I have seen, and that is her commercial. Telling your viewing audience that they are fat and need to diet? I mean, what is this? Nasty! You are Nasty!

So, what brought on this rant you may ask? What happened besides my desire to not write up an outline for my presentation? The fact that me, like many other bigger people, eat healthy. Not because we desire to be thin, but because it's good for our bodies, we've done it for a long time, and we like to. I love vegtables. I do. Blanched broccoli, raw cauliflower, peppers any colour but green I could eat like apples. I know so many people who eat healthy and are any size, and I know so many people who eat crap, and are any size. This all came to a boiling point when I was at the cafeteria and was stocking up on the salad section. I love this section because it's determined by the weight of your plate, not by what veggies you have. This means that I can eat all the red peppers and cauliflower I want and barely pay anything! It's a gold mine! So I get my plate of peppers, cucumber slices, cauliflower, and carrots and I pay for it and join my friends. I sit down, and a well-meaning but... sigh... not-thought-about comment from a friend is 'oh, why isn't that healthy'. Like, oh, look, the fat girl is eating veggies. Let's pet her on the head. And then, somebody says 'oh, are you on a diet?'.



Seriously, eat me. I am fine. My eating is fine. I will admit I need to get out more because I don't exercise enough, but that's because I know the risks of a sedentary lifestyle. I like my heart. I would like to keep it happy. I am happy.

School.... meh

Heh. It's been a fun week. First, let me lay out my Monday to you....

Wake up: hm, throats a little dry. Oh well, PG is a dry place. Lalala.
Get to school: Feeling a little scratchy in my throat, craving hot tea. Not good.
Go to class: Throat is sore, got that snot thing where you can't blow your nose but you can feel it in the absolute back of your nose, dripping into your throat. Become very bitchy and miserable.
Lunchtime: Mope. Have a hard time swallowing food. Noticing that I am growing tired, blame drinking of tea instead of coffee.
Studying at 1pm in the library: Mope and scowl. Having a hard time focusing on studies. Constant dry throat, no matter how much tea or water I drink. Refuse to acknowledge growing illness as I had dedicated myself to four hours at school researching my biology paper due at 3pm on Wednesday.
Home at 3pm: Fall asleep while studying, throat is burning, same with sinuses. Have gone home three hours ahead of schedule. Very, very bitchy.
4pm: After drinking that lemon-medicine drink and flipping channels for an hour, try to sleep but can't because I can't breathe out my nose and keep on choking.
630pm: get up from lying in bed for two and a half hours to watch Project Runway. Jenn has gone to work out so nobody can hear my whinings. Whine anyways.
7pm: Project Runway. I am so happy that Santio got bitch slapped! Woohoo!
Nighttime: Jenn finds me sinustab and I lie down for a horrid, horrid sleep... or lack of it. I think I slept from 12 to 1 and 4 to 6.

So... note the whole lack of study or research happening? Right. Tuesday I won't lay out for you because it was mostly sleeping, sneezing, coughing, taking hot baths because my whole body hurt, writing one crappy paper that was due that night (I emailed it) and one hour of looking at my paper for biology. Oh yeah, then I went to the walk in clinic and got a prescription for a throat infection. Which, in case you were wondering, I had to stop my doctor from leaving the room to ask 'what did you prescribe me?' and 'what do you think I have?' cause he wasn't going to take the time to tell me if I hadn't. Anyhoo...

Wednesday! Today! My painkillers have helped with the whole body ache but I'm sneezing (the bad sneezes, where if I don't have a kleenex there is snot everywhere!) and coughing and it's funny because nobody sat next to me on the bus which was nice. I skipped my first two classes in order to write my paper for biology. Which the writing wasn't that hard, but the tables took so much time, and then I started on the graphs but I forgot how to do them, and the graph program on excel isn't really all that user friendly, so I flip to my lab manuel and realize that I need to put my standard deviations in the table, so I had to go back and do that, then I only had half an hour to do my graphs, finally figured them out, had time to do one of three before realizing I had to go. It was horrid, realizing I had to hand in a paper that was incomplete, missing two graphs. So I go, with my snotty nose, froggy voice, and mope infront of my lab class. Then I realize something. Nobody else has a paper with them.

That's right people.

The bloody paper is due next week.



Me and my kleenex are going to watch TV and mope.

Kinda caught up.... a little I guess

So I'm not quite caught up in my biology homework but we do three chapters a week so it's hard to keep up on the current stuff as well as go over the past stuff. I'm still doing the readings before class but I've gone back to redo my notes for the chapters because I was not understanding what was going on. It makes me appreciate my friends Adrienne and Jodi more because biology is ridicously hard.

So incase nobody knew this yet.... Jenn and Jim are getting married in Costa Rica in March! 2006! Then Jim and the Bears are moving here! Wheeeeeeeeee!!!! Fun-ness is going to Jenn's blog and going through the present registry. I've already decided what I'm going to get them but I don't know if I should get it now or wait till Jim moves here. Knowing me, I'll get it pretty soon because I loooove giving presents. I'm thinking of ordering it while they are in Costa Rica and giving Jenn a card for them to open on their wedding day with a picture of what it is. That's a good idea eh? I'm so happy for them!

My room is trashed. Last night I went around and picked up all the receipts (is that spelled right?) and misc. paper off my floor except for the one corner of my room that is a mass of clothing, papers, and books. And the area by my door. That's a mass of papers, knickknacks, and bags. Oh, but the kitties had fun last night when I changed my sheets. Spike will stay underneath the covers no matter how hard you nudge him, he'll just burrow deeper, and Chuck just spazzes out constantly and will a) attack the sheets, scare himself b) attack Spike under the sheets, get scared c) attack my hand when I tucks the sheets in, get scared or d) spaz out for no reason.

Oh, and that flashing picture on my previous blog entry was suppose to be a link to this but for some reason it didn't work. sigh.

And thanks to Mom for telling me about this.
North by Northwest Knits on Saturday Jan 21..with a show all about this very popular art/craft. For those interested in the Scarf Swap here's how it will work: everyone who sends in a hand knitted scarf will get one in return from another BC knitter. Please include with your scarf a note with your name and address, sone information about the pattern and the wool and some little anecdote about you and knitting. The Swap will continue through Feb and possibly into March depending on the response from around BC.

Otherwise, my life has been pretty low-key of late. It's been lovely having Jim here. I work a lot, well, every Saturday and Sunday so I don't really have a technical day off but Thursday my only class is from 630 to 8 so meh. Last week I slacked on school work and watched a lot of TV (I heart Project Runway) so this week has been a mad scramble to catch up which was unfortunate because it's hard to 'catch up' on something that is due that day... like let's say a colliquium paper, or an annotated bibliography. Yeah. Not the best plan of attack.

Away I go!

I'm not allowed to blog till I catch up on my biology homework but...

Topic approved!

Well, since my previous cheerful topic of female genital cutting was deemed too sociological for my psychology seminar class(which, in all fairness, it was), I've decided to do my research on the equal or even more cheerful topic of the high rate of senior suicide! Wheee! Anyhoo, the three courses is working out well. I still have a tonne of coursework but at least it is manageable. I've been getting a lot of congratulations from people which is always so nice and lots of wonderful phone calls. Love love. I have also been able to start up some drawing again, right now just drawing out of my sister's Faerie book by Brian Froud. Knitting still, I went crazy at Darlene's yarn store the other day but the results are beautiful. I have some fun stuff I want to do with my blog, which included starting movie reviews based on my humble opinion but I just wanted to blog right now and say hello to people (hello) and also tell people that I just got a wonder woman notebook in the mail. Is there anything better than that?

And now I'm back

Okay.

I'm breathing now. (for drama show... see previous blog of about... oh three minutes ago)

I'm not a failure. I'm very smart (Jenn says so and she's really smart so she must be right).

Reasons I'm smart.

1. realizing that I am unhappy and doing something about
   
2. realizing that I am ignoring aspects of my life that I love like my friends, family, and artwork
3. realizing that going to school for thirty two months straight is insane
4. realizing that attending school for another year means I can apply to places like University of Victoria, UBC, SFU, as well as UNBC

So I'm not crying anymore, though I can't promise I won't again because I am a complete spaz, but I promise that I won't cry about this decision. And even though I want to go back and delete my last blog, I won't because I think it's hilarious that I had a nervous breakdown in blogdom. Heh. Wheeeeeeeeee for me.

In other news, I got a kick ass japanese animation artbook that displays all the popular artists right now and it's amazing. I got it with the gift certificate from my aunt and cousins. I love them.

Where does the student end and life begin?

Well, having a little angst crisis here. You can leave now, I wouldn't blame you. In fact, I've a half mind to leave as well, but I've been drinking, so my judgement is very, very questionable. Anyhoo, back to my angst. I've always joked about how much I bitch about school in my blog, I mean, just look at my titles over that past year or so. I despise it, it wasn't always so, but it is very so now. Other people have knitting blogs, I have a hating school blog. And I'm in school. And I hate it. This isn't a good thing me thinks. So, as I said to myself as I was mulling to myself on the bus tonight after a rather silly library tutorial, I have a few options. I could not blog anymore, but that is a stupid option, so let's forget about it. I could drop out of school, but frankly, I NEED to be a teacher at this point. I've read so much about it and seen so many amazing people doing it that I do feel that being a teacher will make the difference in life that I've been seeking;hence, not dropping out of school. So what's a girl to do?

I don't know. I just don't. Well, that's a lie. I do. I just hate it right now. I'm going to drop the amount of courses I am taking and take another year at school and writing that has made me start to cry because I feel like a failure.

And now I'm going to go because I can't have any sort of liquid near my sister's laptop.

School is stupid

That statement is becoming a time honoured tradition in my blog. Hm. Anyhoo, I don't have much time to bore you currently as I am about to pick up this computer (just the screen as it is very light) and chuck it at the wall since there's a journal issue that is solely dedicated to my seminar topic and is impossible to track down but meh... I'm hungry. So if my blogs are few and far between as of late it's because I decided to download a virus onto Jenn's computer because I'm that frickin' helpful. I also could bitch about my insane courseload but I'll save that for later when I have actually attended all my classes and can revamp my blog as well. So far, the coolest thing I have learned is that rain began life, which is cool, I don't know why, but it is. Rain is what cooled the earth and they figured that life began in the pools of fresh water with all the radiation and stuff. I really do like my biology professor. Why he had to assign three chapters a week, I'll never know, but he's neato. As well, speaking of cool things, guess who purchased the official Star Wars chess set? Me! Heh. It's got a good side (Chewbacca, Han Solo, Princess Leia, Obiwan (Ewan), C-3po and R2D2, Padme, Yoda, and Luke) and an evil side (Darth Vader, Sidious, Maul, Count Dooku, Boba Fett, Emperor, Sidious' bodyguards, and stormtroopers). Yeah.

Spoiled brat reporting in

Spoiled I tell you! Spoiled. The brat part comes in because poor Jenn is trying to clean the house and I so far have played computer games, slept, and knit. And now I'm blogging. Anyhoo, this is going down as one of the best Xmases in history; however, very bittersweet because it was my sister's last visit with us for quite awhile since she left today to Sudan for a year to be the amazing person she is and work with MSF. I have a journal that I write her letters in and when it's full I'm going to mail it to her. It's from this line called Yellow Bus that puts out all these crazy messed up translation journals and notebooks with these cozy bears and kitties who knit. So yes, spoiled. I have a lot of things I want to blog about but I'm going to save them for later. Hopefully get one more blog in before I have to start classes (nnnnnnnnnnnooooooooooooooooooooonononono) and I do want to give my blog a little of a makeover, just cause it's been over a year now and things need to change (bloom county fans dispute this but it's true). So today I'm just going to notch down my haul and pay tributes to the people that made it possible. Did that make sense? Notch down? I just wrote it without thinking and yeah. Hm. And here they are, in no order, Leone's prezzies galore (Xmas and Birthday combined).

• The Complete Calvin and Hobbes! I kinda lost it when I saw this. I mean, can you, can you honestly get any cooler than this? I still get heart palpatations when I see it on my dresser. It's so revered that I'm not putting it on my bookshelf. It know stands beside my knitting needles. (Angels singing inserted here)
• Bubble bath from lush, a future plant, and chocolate was a kooky wonderful gift from Adrienne
• A wonderfully soft red houserobe that I am wearing right now cause it's wonderful (after recieving it and leaving home, I think I spent more time in it than regular clothing, in fact, we have these wonderful family photos where everyone is dressed and pretty and I'm in my robe. heh)
• My friend Kayla continued her tradition of beautiful unique gifts in giving me a wonderfully esquisite blown glass ornament in the shape of... CAAAANDY!
  
• My Aunt Shirley got me the most amazing mohair yarn from New Zealand (seriously, you can't get it here, it was bought in NZ) and it's all different shades of purples and blues.
  
• I had two new bears to bring home with me! Mosiac is a purple dragon from Sheena, and Rupi is a handmade knitted bear from Jodi. Mosiac would like me to mention that the link is just to show off what his breathen looks like, but that he is not defined by the 'poem' nor the site, and neither are his siblings. Bear solidarity! He's also a lot cuter than the picture.
• Julia and Jason got me tonnes of stuff in the above mentioned yellow bus line. I have a little money bank that doesn't open, two booklets, and a day planner, plus a sketchbook that has kitties all over it, a stamp set of little kitty stamps which if I ever get my thank you cards (read: belated christmas cards) out those stamps will be on them, a pencil bag, a pirate girl postcard, and (trumpets here).... a kalidoscope! I love it. It is inspiring me to knit fair isle but I really am not allowed to get any more yarn. All of this also came in a box covered in hearts and sparkles that reads 'Sweet Love: It's right out of something from a fairy tale. A terribly exciting and a scary tale'. Heh, I love messed up translations.
  
• this purse which I love and is now my official sidekick. Um, I don't think that site is where Julia and Jason got it from though. Which makes it even cooler.
  
• My grandparents got me special shampoo and conditioner for curly hair, which combined with the frizz ease Santa got for me in my stocking and the haircut I got, means my hair is actually presentable! Whee!
• Jenn got me loads of fun stuff like a beautiful vase that hangs on the wall that the cats are already trying to kill, fused glass earrings, and hand spun hand dyed wool from Darlene which I profused my love to repeatedly last month. I don't know what I'm going to make out of it yet. I'm thinking a triangle shawl or a very wide lace scarf. I love it like caaaandy.
  
• I also got lots of bamboo knitting needles from my family and Jodi, and more yarn from my family, maggi's tweed (it's the blue one) and soooo soft galaxy yarn 'star' as well .
  
• An abstract painting from my newly engaged Katima-friend John, who is, if you are wondering, engaged to Vero, who is another Katima-friend, they were both in my group, which, again, if you are wondering, makes two couples out of a group of ten. Who knew? I'm so happy for them, they are seriously the most cutest, random couple ever.
  
• A beautiful framed photo of my friends and I from Sheena from the summer when all four of us managed to be in the same place at the same time and entertained people with our conversations at bean scene.
  
• I also got a gift certificate to reitmans (santa i think) and to coles (my aunt and uncle and cousins)
• Mr. & Mrs. Smith. Mmmm.... Angelina Jolie.......... Yes, so thanks to Jim for sending that to me, we watched it and everyone agreed to was a good movie. I'm hoping to blog my thoughts of it soon. I have some deep thoughts about that movie. Also some diry ones, but I won't blog about those. My mom reads this people!
  

Goodness gracious spoiled indeed! And while I've been blogging, I think Jenn did the dishes again. crap. So I hope I got everything because if I forgot someone I am sooooo sorry! But I don't think I did. I hope I didn't. I loved everything I got and everyone spoiled me unmercilessly (is that a word?) but Wheeeeeeeee for Xmas and a meh for new years because well, I dunno, but I was in the bath when new years happened. And while looking up links to stuff I found this article which is an interesting read. Good night everyone!

Day one of ninteen complete

So I have ninteen days in total where I am not obligated to do anything school related if I don't want to. Now granted, I'm a total loser keener who has already bought two textbooks and started reading them but that's beside the point. The point is that I have realize now the importance of these days, their holiness, their sacredness, and their motto, as Jeff would say, is 'today's special', and it is people, it is. So each day I am going to wake up and think of something I can do that will remind me of how grateful that day is, a day where school isn't a factor. Doesn't have to be big, quite small, maybe insignificant to the untrained eye, but never-the-less, it will mean something to me. So today, I spend about three hours deciding (and as yet, undecided) a stitch pattern for which to start my latest project. That's right, three hours deciding a stitch pattern! Oh the power of it all! I looked through all my books and magazines, tried out some, frogged them all, then decided to walk to the library, then decided it was too cold, then went online and searched for patterns, then Jenn took me [/heart] to the library and I flipped through book after book (when it comes to knitting books, the PG library is painfully out of date, which isn't that big of a problem cause a lot of the older stuff has some neat techniques in it but they have an entire vogue collection from the 80s that is one big tacky sweater after another), and then I came home and looked through all the books I had gotten and tried some more, then resorted back to a previous idea and frogged that time after time again and yeah. It was great. Three hours! (there were lots of break inbetween for sushi and such but you get the idea)
So that was my wheeeee no school thing of day one. I also kinda worked on my room (sorted laundry and papers), did dishes, sushi lunch with Jenn, grocery shopping, and played Sims. My first family that I ever started on Sims2, the Fables, well their twin girls just grew into teenagers and they just moved into a new house and Milla and Ashley are thinking of having another baby after her next promotion. Hee... wow.... I completely sound like I have no life or maybe.... I really don't have a life.



Nah.

Anyhoo, speaking of my own life, I have about... letseehere..... 6, yup, 6 people I have to call this week. Two of them are unreturned phone calls because school = irresponsible negligent Leone. I also haven't sent out my christmas cards yet. Maybe they will be Happy New Years cards, or Valentine cards. I dunno.

Oh yeah, and if anyone can get me one of these, I will marry you! (or not, whatever). Alright, I'm outta here. I'm going to bed. I'll blog again soon and let you know what I'm doing to truely appreciate these holiest of days. Hope you all do the same! Hooray for not going to universityl!


editors note: I just read this and holy crap am I having tense issues or what? I'm not going to change it because I'm quite tired and I believe that is the main source of difficulties here but I just wanted to point out my own awareness of my inability to stay in the present, the past, or the furture. Meh. And thanks for reading.

two types of tired

1. Dirty Monkey Ass Tired
This is the tired where it physically hurts to breath in too quickly. You can't focus on things right away because they appear to be wavering back and forth, untill you realize that's you wavering back and forth. It takes about 5 seconds to properly process questions but sometimes you answer anyways without really knowing what the question is and that can be a big, big mistake. You forget how to work the debit machine and in vain search for the period not realizing it's just like bank machines and you just punch the numbers in order. Someone asks you something at the back of the store and by the time you take them to the front of the store, you've forgotten their question and have to ask them why you took them to the front of the store. You walk into the bathroom door because you forgot to open it first. You enter a zen stage with knitting and after fifteen minutes realize you have been staring at the wall while knitting and freak out frantically searching for any dropped stitches or mess ups (miracously, there are none). You switch prices while reading them out to the customer... like staying something is 99 dollars and 24 cents, when it is actually 24.99. Do that twice in one night.
2. Freaky Donkey Ass Tired
This is when you are so tired, everything is funny because nothing makes sense. You realize you have an exam in three days worth 50% of your grade and you have barely started studying: start laughing hysterically in the middle of the mall. You drop something, snort loudly, then laugh because you snorted. Your coworker asks you what's with you tonight, giggle like a hyena then let out a very heavy, long sigh. This tired is also associated with random feelings of wanting to cry, when you can feel that burning of salt tears behind your eyeballs. Don't cry, because then you know you will get snotty nose and blotchy skin. Laugh about it afterwards.

memo: this is suppose to be funny, not depressing. Jenn's all depressed now. It's funny! The crying bit is random crying, you know, when you are so tired that you want to cry for no reason (well, maybe you want to cry because you are tired but still... random). So funny, people, this is a very funny post. And everyone go console Jenn now too.

crazed carb filled caffeine day (and some smirnoff)

oh so tired

had lots of bread today... toast... subway six inch honey oat.... terayki chicked burger... half a paninni (spelling wrong)... so much bread. I feel like a seagull I guess.

I studied at starbucks today and got my free (messed up previous order) venti latte, then my new best friend who works there made me a chai eggnog latte and a chantico and a sampler of a strawberry creme frappucino then I went to school and had an americano. and i had a pepsi (first one since thanksgiving canada). and nearly two litres of water. I peed a lot today.

so... i've been studying... then working.... then taking an exam (monday education)... then working.... then studying... I usually get to the school around 830 with jenn then study till one thirty then go home and eat and go to work between three or four then work till nine but oh ho ho I had today off of work! so I woke up at 8 and left the house at nine fifteen and studied at starbucks and at school till 6 when i took my exam for the worst class ever and I really, really, really did not do well but i could actually fail the exam and still get a b (if i didn't take the exam i would have still gotten a c+) which is crazy cause i mean for a class to be the worst class ever and i still have a good grade... i mean, it's got to be really bad then. and then after that, i studied some more for my exam tomorrow morning... and i also had a cooler because it was bought for me. heh... while studying... but after my exam. not like it would have made a difference. really. got home at nine thirty. so yeah. nice day off eh?

going to bed now... once i've finished brushing my teeth.

as the kayla would say.... tootles

Spawnkitty for sale!

Get 'em while their bad! Vulcan Spawnkitty Spike limited time offer! This Spawnkitty likes to knock over garbage cans, jump on the counter, and attack expensive storebought buns in plastic bags while his pets are away. He's a sturdy Spawnkitty, being able to knock over scratching posts and still sometimes scale door frames. He is heavy into the corruption of other kitties and will often pin crimes on them successfully. His likes are eating vegtables off cutting boards, lying in human laps while they are trying to do stuff, and shedding. His dislikes include shower curtains, wrapping paper, and being picked up. A limited time offer, Spawnkitty Spike* is going for only 99.99$!!

*Spawnkitty Spike is not actually for sale. Any money received will be considered belated Spike birthday presents and spent on tuna and yarn. While Spike has lapses of saneness, his pet still loves him immensly. The way he is a total lapwhore, how affectionate he is even to strangers now, how he rushes to the door (most of the time) when she gets home, how he doesn't eat her yarn as much as he used to, when he sleeps on her feet and night and purrs when she moves, when he burrows under the blankets and hides in corners, when he mews and then collapses and rolls at her feet, when he pushes himself around on his back by bracing his feet against the wall, and when he stares out the window, protecting the home.

Christmas already?

I've already received christmas presents! At my Christmas dinner with Florence, she got me Sin City, a wonderful silver chain with a beautiful charm, and a kitty angel pin (it was made in Alberta). We had a wonderful dinner, we spend most of it talking about sex. Letsee, so I've finished a few presents but I still have a ways to go. It's crazy I tell you. I started knitting a present for one of my friends, but then I found this yarn that screamed out her name (hint: A-something-e) so now I'm going to do something with the new yarn so now I have a nearly finished other knitting project with no home so I am going to finish it but I dunno what's going to happen to it. I may just keep it as a spare incase I forgot anyone. I'm also really not allowed to buy more yarn for awhile, not because of money, but because I have sooooo much yarn. So much. I handed in my knit for kids last week, (If I can wing it the picture should be below) they received over 1000 items for the salvation army (knit for kids is a thing that Lewiscraft puts on that you can knit kids items for winter and return them and the sally ann hands them out during winter). Well, I need to go study like an insane person who has left a lot of her studying too late and slept in again this morning. I'm also listening to my new CD: Pink Floyd The Wall. Heh. I am so friggin' cool.

Guess What I Did?

First, before I tell you, I want to say Thank You to everyone who gave me hugs! That was the greatest. And it was so nice to hear from people who I know read but rarely respond, it's like unwrapping a present that you know what it is but that only makes it better.

So what did I do. Well, you know how I complain that I have no time and am a giant ball of stress? I decided getting a job would cure all that. So yeah, I got a job. Heh. For those in PG, you'll know where I'm talking about... a comic book store baby yeah! They hired me! Even though I am apparently a trendy librarian! I'm pretty excited. Firstly, I get a discount on comics! Secondly, I have a resemblence of life outside of school! Thirdly, I will be making money! Not accumulating debt! Craziness I tell you! So. Yeah. I could see some shaking heads and waggling fingers, but meh. I think this job is going to be hectic madness, but I think it will also be a whole bunch of fun. My boss-lady is a wonderful person and it's all good. Heh.

and i talked to the guy i like again. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Okay, I'm away to proof read this paper again. It's so bad when you know a sentence is crap, but for the life of you, you just can't seem to think of a better one.

Thanks again for the hugs!

Where are you and what are you doing?

I'm at the computer desk.

Earlier I was studying for an exam I have tomorrow and am currently writing a paper for THE WORST CLASS EVER.

Anybody want to give me a hug?



That would be nice.

Wonderful things to knit

This is just a fun blog to be done before I retire (it's 9:30 in the evening you know!)

• I'd save this for my own kid it's soooo cute! Medusa hat
• pasha
• a womb, cause I mean... then you can say 'i knit a womb this weekend. it's green.' Is there anything better than that?
  
• a tea cozy (but if I was to knit one for Buffy, it would not be this one, or at least, not these colours)
• these socks, but without the individual toes, and different colours to match different holidays. heh. yeah.
• my favorite bear, again
• if Cohen was a girl I'd knit him this

So I'm going to bed now but before I do, I'm thinking if I have time I'm going to knit a baby hat for my english teacher who just had a baby girl. Should I do the baby tart, or the miss dashwood? Please let me know because they are both soooooo bloody cute I just can't decide.

Sweet dreams everyone!


Nov 21st note: Have started the baby tart baby hat.

Yarn, wonderful yarn (tra la la)

So to the left and below is my mohair yarn. One has metallic shiny bits in it. I got them at the studio fair and paid outrageously high prices for them. It was one of those things were I wanted them, wasn't sure, so I put them down, looked around, saw someone else pick them up, got a rush of jealousy and possessiveness, and once the other person put them down, swept in there and picked them up. They are worth it though, I want to make something as equally unique (wait, does the placement of those two words next to each other cancel them out?) so I don't want to start anything yet. But yeah, I loveth them. They are a tad different colour scheme but they work.







Then next is a close up of my slub. I love my slub. I don't even know what it is really, I know it's wool, I think it's all in how it is spun but yeah, I love my slub. It is, I would have to say, the most perfect colour scheme I have ever seen in my life. Really, I'm dead serious here. Perfect. And isn't this photo just so artsy fartsy? I took all of these with Coral's camera. Yeah for Coral!
This last photo is another artsy one of my cotton sari rainbow blend. This was made in Nepal and was made out of recycled saris. I want to make a purse out of it or a wrap. I don't know. Why can't I just be rich so I can buy my way into teaching without all the 'schooling' getting in the way? Honestly. Being rich would solve everything.


Well, I don't know how well this will turn out with the photos and all, but I hope it's coherent and the photos kinda match up with their description!

Christmas List!!! (and birthday!!!)

Okay, here it is!* Um, I may change it now and then so I'll put it on my side thingies over there too.

• A Dictionary of Angels, Including the Fallen Angels by Gustav Davidson
• Gift certificates to The Neverending Yarn (Vernon) or Darlene's Yarns (PG)
• As for yarn, I'm looking for handspun mohair angora in purpley/greyie/bluish subdued colours (you'll know you've got it if it is ridicously expensive), and I also like slub from Nova Scotia, the rainbow cotton sari blend from Nepal, or any type of soy yarn. (for photos of said yarns, see here) Frankly, I'm happy with any type of yarn, be it acrylic, wool, alpaca, or unknown.
• Bamboo knitting needles
• Very nice, sparkly, smallish or not, earrings: like this or this or this (I'm only using these as examples, not as specifics, I trust your judgement, but hey, if you wanna get me the blue topaz earrings)
• Paintbrushes, the little ones: pointy, edged, or thick, doesn't matter.
  
• I don't know if this exists but a queen sized original Spiderman (Ditko) duvet cover.
• Old knitting magazines
  
• A floor length, very soft, housecoat (one that you could cuddle up in a chair with a purring kitten and a mug of tea on a cold PG night and watch Buffy in)
• Cohen
• digital camera
• the frizz ease hair gift set from shoppers (the one for curls)
  
• The March of the Penguins
• 40 year old Virgin (if it comes out by christmas)
• The anniversery addition of Brian Frouds Faeries
• anything from Reitmans
• the calvin and hobbes collection (the massive three book one)
• a CD booklet, one of those massive booklets with those slips that will fit a whole buncha CDs
  

I think that's it, I'm trying to think right now but I seem to be lacking thoughts. If anyone knows anything else I want for Christmas please email me it so I can put it on here. I will be so happy when Christmas comes around. School is evil. Evil. Tata!

*I'm sure whatever anyone gets me, even if it is not on the list, will be perfect and I'll love it.

Things I have done today to avoid studying

You'd think that getting back a ridicously crappy mark in one of my favorite classes would motivate me to study. Apparently not so. So, it's 3:30 and what have I done today?

• slept in till 10:30 because Spike came and curled up on my chest (so cute)
• had my yummy new maple churned honey with peanut butter on squirrely toast
• checked my email and looked at the blogs
• mulled and mulled about my wool toque that I haven't blocked yet and may just frog because it's just a tad tad too short but meh
  
• walked to grocery store to get coffee and came back with coffee, buns, a magazine, and mandrin oranges
• had mandrin orange and looked at magazine I bought
  
• complete two typed pages of notes from my lifespan development textbook, chapter 11 (the self, identity, and personality)
  
• made lunch for Jenn and I (cheese and turkey sandwiches with the raspberry honey mustard and mushroom soup with pasta and the pasta scared Jenn when she went to eat it... heh)
• put away dishes
• looked at blogs again
• played defend your castle
  
• found a whole buncha cool knitting sites from midnight blogger, and I so want to order this but I'll wait cause it's ten dollars shipping fees for Canadians.
  
• and now I'm blogging

So there are many more things I want to do today. Letseehere...

• complete chapter 11 (it's shame this is so difficult since I am actually interested in it, I just despise everything school right now)
• start cleaning my room (at least put up my fraggle rock poster and organize my clothing)
• finish my two knitting projects (Jim and Kayla)
• play sims
• yoga (Rodney Yee again I think)
• go over my paper for Behaviour Modification
  
• clean the bathroom

There are a lot more things I need to do: schoolwork, hem my new pants, ect, but it would be silly to put them on there right now cause I won't get them done today. Well. I should go. Maybe I can get on Jenn's computer and play sims. Hm.

Week IV

So week IV of exercise was a success. I worked out four times in one week period which means I get my reward of a new knitting magazine. So after work Jenn is taking me to Books & Company to get it. Very excited. I have so been blowing off the school work, well, not totally true. I've been reading chapters but not anything else. I'm knitting like a crazy person which is great. I went to the yarn store yesterday to pick up yarn I needed to finish a project (my colour was gone so that has posed a tiny problem but I'm improvising) and to get instructions for my Mom on how to block her shawl. There was so much yarn! Darlene recieved her original shipment plus three backordered shipments she had ordered in July! There is this one yarn called Noro that I adore, and it felts up so nicely and is 100% wool and very warm, this is the yarn I call 'kitten' because it is so freaking soft, FFF Over, and others that I can't seem to find online or can't remember the name of. I also just got to school and I have two hours and because I thought I would be taking the bus home because I didn't know Jenn was leaving early I didn't bring anything with me besides my notebook so I don't actually have any work to do.... so I'm blogging. And I feel bad because I'm sure everyone else (well, maybe not everyone else) is working on papers (which I should be), or researching (which I'm not because I decided to write the extra final instead of the doing a paper because Kyle is a ridicously hard marker of papers and I have undisturbed five days before the final in which to study) and I'm blogging and looking up yarn online. Heh. That's so great.

Coma-induced slug

So, after two weeks of complete undergrad hell, I decided this weekend I would take a break. Or have a nervous breakdown. I decided to take a break. So... what did I do you ask?

• Went to the Studio Fair twice(!) and bought....yarn (two handspun mohair with metallics, not telling how much they cost), honey (maple churned in a glass bear jar), mustard (honey raspberry hot hot), Jim's present (not telling!), Jen's present (again with the not telling), honeycomb (fun, but not as much fun as I would have liked), a book, and nearly got a marionette but I didn't and now I'm sad. I also nearly bought a 200 dollar photo of a bear cub climbing on a tree on canvas but I didn't. The people were kinda snotty, and I didn't really have 200 dollars to spend on art. Which sucks. But hey! Maple churned honey! Oh yeah, and tonnes of samples, samples, samples.
• Went to the Y Saturday (I just forgot how to spell Saturday and had to look at various spellings before deciding on that one, hope it's right) and worked out at 6:30 in the morning with Jenn and Coral. I decided to put the elliptical at the highest slant and my thighs are still paying for that.
• Knit like a crazy person, finished my first scarf for Knit for Kids and nearly done another christmas present which I started last January, and I did inventory on all my knitting projects and yarn. Have come to many conclusions. A) I have too much yarn and need to knit it all up so I can buy more but seriously, so much yarn! B) I need to finish all my projects that are knitted up but still have to be sewn together or something (about three of those) so I can put them in a complete section. C) I need to get my hands on a digitial camera so I can take photos of all the christmas presents so I can post them after christmas and show everyone. D) I need a better organizer for my knitting needles (right now they are in a big metal bucket that has a lobster on it) which is fine, but I still need a better container.
• Watched Kids in the Hall Brain Candy. Heh, really really funny. Wrong, in so many ways, but so funny.
• Wrote a completely half-assed paper for my dreadful class that I don't care about and barely spent any time on.
• Finally went shopping for pants and got three pairs, two jeans (one dark, one with jewels) and a brown pair of dress pants, and also got a blue cardigan with jewels and a pink blouse which I'm wearing right now.
• Did Tae bo with Jenn (and did Yoga this morning and will hopefully do tae bo again tonight so I can reach my week goal of working out four times this week and get to buy my knitting magazine as I did not make my goals last week which was fine cause I still worked out three times).

So that was really nice. I also played a lot of computer games and listened to lots of music and watched TV with Jenn and played with the kitties. It was wonderful. Now I'm back at school.... sigh, but oh well. Week ten of thirteen! And only three days long! There, it's all good now. I'll let you know tomorrow if I did my workout and if I did I'll blog about my new magazine. If I didn't then I dunno, I may still blog anyways, but maybe just tell you about what I had for dinner instead.

things to remember to keep me going

* tomorrow is day 3 of week nine of thirteen weeks
* next week is only three days long
* 43 days and I'll be done
* at least I'll eventually get out; the professors are there forever!
* after these four, only three more psych courses to finish
* at least I'm not homeless or desolute or friendless
* I love my bed
* Spike doesn't seem bothered by any of this at all
* even if I bombed today's exam the rest of the class did too
* even if I bomb tomorrows exam I'll still have chocolate waiting for me at home
* just because I have a presentation in three days with seven other people, five of whom I don't know nor have ever met, and we don't have an outline and none of our email addresses work, doesn't mean it won't go well.
* jesus loves me
* Jenn bought me a pink water bottle since mine was left at school (my fault) and taken by someone (bastard)
* I had kick-ass medusa hair for halloween and that will never change



Okay.
I'll keep going.